The Connection Between School Shootings & Trauma

I'm going to ask you to think about the school shootings that have gone on in the United States over the last two decades.  Think of the men and boys who, for whatever reasons, chose to horrifically end the lives of their peers and often their own lives as well.

Now rewind.  Imagine those young men on their first day of kindergarten. 

Why does Joey get off the bus thirteen years later poised to thrive in society and Johnny feel so hopeless and angry that he feels the need to murder? 

The answer is trauma.

While there are a number of factors that contribute to feeling so hopeless, so disconnected that someone feels the need to take another person's life, trauma is present 99.9% of the time.  More likely than not, little Johnny is getting off of that school bus and going home to physical and/or emotional violence between his parents.  He's sleeping without heat because the gas bill couldn't get paid this month.  He may be the victim of physical or sexual abuse by a family member.  He may be told he's stupid or no good or a host of other horrible things that adults shouldn't be told, let alone children.  His physical and emotional needs are going unmet.

As a result, Johnny acts out in class.  He becomes the thorn in his teachers side.  He may get punished more often, socially ostracized by the other kids and pushed further into the outskirts of social acceptance. 

Now home and school are uncomfortable and unsafe leaving him feeling he has less options and less to lose.

Now, let's be clear.  All of this is not to say there should be no accountability.  We can both hold individuals accountable AND understand how this came about in the first place.  Because these incidents are tips of icebergs.  And the tip of an iceberg can feel like it popped out from behind thick patches of fog to surprise us.  But the iceberg wasn't really hiding was it?  It's been there all along.  

Let's also be clear that while it is true that there has been an increase in school shootings it is still statistically an unlikely event.  But do you know what is likely going on in the homes of children in your district?  Child abuse, domestic violence, sexual abuse and physical and emotional neglect.  While again, it takes a number of factors for these kids to grow up to be school shooters, they are more likely to go on to physically and verbally abuse their girlfriends, severely bully other students and sexually assault other girls and boys.

Imagine you had every child and parent in your school district in a room.  Now apply the numbers:

  • One in three of the adolescents in the room will experience physical, emotional, verbal and/or sexual violence by their boyfriend.
  • One in three women and one in four men in the room are survivors of domestic violence.
  • Just over 3,000 child abuse reports were made in Allegheny County in 2016 (3 deaths).  A portion of those CYF calls were made in your district.
  • One is 6 women in the room have been raped and just over 50% of those rapes occurred before she was 18 years old.

Violence is already present in our schools.  Trauma exists on campus with our children.   We all say those silent prayers each time we send our kids off to school:

"Please be safe."  "Please come back to me."

But when we solely focus on what could happen today, we miss opportunities to do some real prevention work for the future. There are many factors that go into whether or not Johnny is going to end up hurting himself or someone else throughout his time in class with our kids.  But trauma is the common denominator.  Therefore, we must ask how can we better connect with and support the family who can't put food on the table.  How do we reach out and support kids and adults who don't feel safe in their homes?  The puzzle pieces are all around us, we're just not putting them together to see the bigger picture.

All too often we look to teachers to bear the brunt of this responsibility.  And it's true, they are at times the front line.  But it's on parents and community members to take accountability for the emotional and physical safety of the children around us. Here are a few ways to get started:

  1. Collaborate.  With each other, with teachers, the PTA, with the school board--everyone. 
  2. Find out if your school has had any trauma informed training.  Do your teachers know how to identify behaviors as potential symptoms of trauma?
  3. Advocate for both physical AND emotional safety in schools.  Get creative about promoting a culture of emotional safety in school throughout the year--it cannot be a one time event.
  4. Find ways to expose families in your district to information about key issues such as domestic violence, sexual abuse and child abuse prevention as well as resources for utility assistance, food pantries, DV shelters, etc.

We're talking about creating a cultural shift inside the classroom but also within ourselves as a community.  And as you get started it can certainly feel overwhelming but worth it.  The presence of ONE stable and committed relationship with a supportive adult can change the course of even the most troubled child's life. Please remember:

"Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant." 

Robert Louis Stevenson

Pregnancy After Infertility

Well here you are.  After traveling down the long, winding road of infertility you are now pregnant.  Congratulations!  Or, maybe you're not ready for congrats just yet.  You may find you're feeling a bit...cautiously joyful.  Or straight up anxious!  For so long you had your eyes on the prize--baby.  But now you may find that there are a number of new questions you're faced with:

"What if I have a miscarriage?"                     "Why don't I feel connected to this baby?"

"How will I tell my friends who still aren't pregnant?"                     

                                   "Will I ever get to relax and enjoy this pregnancy I waited so long for?"

Pregnancy after infertility can be a mixed bag of emotions.  Pure joy, raw fear and unexpected ambivalence all tend to rise to the surface and catch you off guard.  "I've been waiting so long for this!  Why can't I just relax and be happy?!"  The short answer--because you are human!  All of that time that you spent hoping and dreaming and praying that this would happen means that once again your heart is feeling vulnerable.

When joy feels dangerous: When the heart is vulnerable, go slowly and go gently.  Allow yourself the space to experience the joy of achieving pregnancy.  If it feels too risky, carve out an allotted time each day that you allow yourself to feel excited.  Comfort the heart--talk with a friend, engage in self care and validate your feelings by acknowledging the fact that hope has felt like risk for a very long time.

When you feel disconnected: It is normal to not feel immediately bonded to this pregnancy, fertility issues or not.  It takes time to transition and there's no right or wrong amount of time that it will take.  Also, you may not be ready to trust your body.  You may have felt resentful towards your body and you both may need  a little more time to heal.  As you head down this new road of pregnancy you'll have to figure out new ways to communicate, comfort and trust your body as you travel towards this new destination together.

When you're "the enemy": Prior to getting pregnant you may have avoided pregnant women and babies like the plague (side eye to Target).  So it may feel a bit awkward to be here and even more so when you think about telling your friends who are still struggling.  At the end of the day, your friends will likely love and support you.  But it will be important for you to reflect on how to talk to your friends about your pregnancy in a way that is both sensitive and respectful of their feelings and experience.

When you can't relax:  Transitioning into pregnancy after infertility is an adjustment.  Pregnancy does not erase the roller coaster you've been on.  Most women find that with some time they figure out how to navigate the transition and ease into pregnancy and motherhood.  It helps if you have one or two people you can talk to about how you're feeling.  And if you find that the transition is harder than you thought it would be, reach out to a counselor who can help you find ways to cope with the anxiety, rebuild your relationship with your body and transition into the identity of motherhood.

Be vulnerable.

Let yourself be deeply seen,

love with your whole heart

practice gratitude and able to

say 'I am thankful to feel this

vulnerable because it means I am alive',

and believe 'I am enough."

You are worthy of love and belonging.

-Brene Brown

The Last Baby

Have you ever had grief creep up on you?  You may have found yourself in the middle of something like slicing a tomato and all of a sudden you're hit with a wave of it?  Or maybe you were itching to get out of that apartment and move into that brand new house you're so ready to make into a home.  Except, come moving day you're flooded with the nostalgia of all of the good things that happened there.

Grief can be sneaky like that.  And parenthood can be full of it.  It's grief that frustrates you when you no longer have time for yourself.  It's grief in that twinge of sadness that comes alongside the joy of watching your baby walk for the first time.  It's grief when you suddenly look up and your children are grown, living lives of their own.  Grief is sly-an unexpected guest in your home.

One particular way in which grief finds its way in is when you decide that you're done having children.  Whether this decision was fraught with sadness or firm with confidence it can still show up at your door.  Parents, often moms will express the shock of just how sad they are that their last baby is now out of her newborn diapers, has finished breastfeeding or is starting preschool.  It's the finality of it.  And even if there are 100 things you are thankful to be done for good (I'm looking at you midnight diaper explosions) there are those things that are hard to move from the filing cabinet of "present" to the "past" in your mind.

So how can you mourn this passing of time?  How can you balance the need to slow down and breathe in the present with life (and other kids) swirling around you?

Mindfulness can be a great way to get started.  Here is a helpful article that talks about how to be mindful while holding your baby.  Other ways that can help you mourn and celebrate this special time:

  • Journaling
  • Writing and keeping letters for your child
  • Scrapbooking
  • Photo albums (actual hard copies for you both to get out and look at together!)
  • Making videos for your child
  • Keeping memory boxes

Like all things related to raising a child there are peaks and valleys.  The loss you feel today will be the loss you feel when he grows out of or transitions into something else ten years from now.  The constant is your relationship, your bond with your child. 

Allow yourself your joy and allow yourself your sadness.  Your feelings are valid.  The experience of raising your last child is valid.  There's no need to push them or yourself during this time.  Grieve, mourn and soak yourself in the joy.  You won't regret it.



After an Abortion

For about six years I worked in an abortion clinic.  This generally sparks a lot of feelings in people, most of which is general curiosity.  Which I welcome!  I tend to get a lot of questions about what I did (short answer: I started out as a counselor that supported women through their procedures and eventually went on to run their counseling program), if I liked it (short answer: I loved my job) and if I felt any differently about my time there now that I have children (short answer: No. Definitely not).

At the clinic we knew that if women felt confident in their decision, felt supported by someone around them and that they weren't being coerced by anyone that they would likely cope well after their abortion.  And the largest group of psychologists in the United States agrees (read more). In fact, women are at a higher risk of mental health issues if they are denied an abortion (more on that).

The reality is, after having an abortion, most women feel a combination of sadness and relief.  But abortion is a socially charged issue and so we tend to pick apart these emotions and try to label them as right and wrong.  I remember a patient who came to see me a few weeks after her abortion who was struggling with the fact that she didn't feel more sad.  Or, those patients who were sad about their decision and a little surprised by the relief they were experiencing.

Have you ever been through a divorce or its equivalent?  Have you ever had to move to another city because of a job?  Life is full of experiences that leave us with complex and at times conflicting emotions.  We make decisions based on the information that is in front of us.  We can know with all of our hearts that it is the right decision for us and still feel sad that it is the best decision. 

I trust women.  I trust them to make decisions about their lives and their existing and future families.  I also trust that grief and healing are an individual process that look different for everyone. 

If you are finding yourself tangled in "shoulds" or lost in grief, reach out.   Find someone you can talk to who will listen, without judgment of your experience.  Because what is mentionable becomes manageable and I trust you have the ability to come out on the other side.


Maternal Mental Health Awareness Week!

It's Maternal Mental Health Awareness Week where we highlight the importance of talking about postpartum depression and anxiety, the importance of screening and intervention and the critical need for supportive legislation and funding around perinatal mental health.

Pop Quiz:  What is the most common complication of childbirth?

Answer: Pregnancy and postpartum mood and anxiety disorders.

1 in 7 women will experience pregnancy and postpartum mood disorders with one or more of their pregnancies.  That's 15-20% of all pregnancies!  But, not all women are screened for postpartum depression and anxiety.  And when they are, it's usually at their OBGYN appointment 6 weeks after they give birth...that's roughly 4 weeks after symptoms of postpartum depression and anxiety kick in!

We can do better.  YOU deserve better.  Having a baby is HARD.  And no matter what your Facebook or Instagram friends tell you, it's hard for them too.  There is no shame in the simple fact that your body just went through a complete hormonal and physical upheaval and now you're trying to figure out a whole new life with your baby. 

Wondering if what your feeling is the "baby blues" or something more?  Complete this screening tool for a little more insight.  Get a score that concerns or surprised you?  Contact a therapist who specializes in maternal mental health so that you can get back to feeling like you again.

Want to learn more about maternal mental health?  Check out this fact sheet

Want to improve MMH screening for pregnant women and families in your area?  Talk to your providers about how and when they screen for pregnancy and postpartum mood disorders.  Do you need help preparing for that conversation?  Do they need help improving their screening process?   I'm here to help.


When Abuse is Normalized

Every Saturday after the kids go to bed my husband and I rent a movie to maintain some resemblance of being a couple outside of being parents.  Last weekend I made the terrible choice of choosing Manchester By the Sea.  If you love feeling like an open wound, freshly salted, then it's the movie for you!  If not, then move on.  So this weekend we chose Fifty Shades of Grey thinking it would be a cheesy but fun movie. 

To be clear: two consenting adults engaging in dominant-submissive behavior can be a positive and pleasurable part of a relationship. 

To be extra clear--that is not what was going on in this movie.

There are about 1 million articles written on how this movie got it right or wrong.  This article articulates my thoughts on how it got it wrong in it's portrayal of who dominant and submissive individuals are.

More importantly however, is the not-so-subtle normalization of abusive behaviors.  This isn't the first movie that gives us romance with a splash of violence or violence with a glimpse of romance.  And it certainly won't be the last.  But let's be extra, super clear about a few things:

  1. No one should ever "own" you.  It's one thing to play out roles and follow "orders" but it's another when someone is exerting power and control over you.  When the role play is over, but the control continues, it's a sign of an unhealthy relationship.
  2. When someone tells you that you are no longer "allowed" to drink alcohol, curse, wear provocative clothing, spend time with a friend/family member, [insert just about anything here], that is an example of someone exerting power and control over you.  In true BDSM, there may be a restricted time period in which part of the play is that you are to not engage in a behavior, but if you're being told that you can no longer do something you've always done, that's a red flag for abuse.
  3. If someone keeps showing up at places you are (at home, work, a bar, or in this case across the country at your mom's house) that's stalking behavior.  More on stalking here.
  4. If you are ever forced to or ever feel pressured or shamed into engaging in a sexual act with a partner, it is not a healthy relationship.
  5. A partner who wants all of your attention and limits or interferes with your time with friends and family is not showing affection.  They are isolating you from your support system.

Over the past two years I've somehow stayed out of most conversations regarding this book and movie.  I liked that women were talking about sex and sexuality.  I liked that people were exploring sides of their psyche that they maybe haven't before.  I heard and read a lot of opinions around the ethics of BDSM, questions around if you can be a feminist and a submissive and what it means to be a trauma survivor and a dominant/submissive.  But there was little said about Christian and Anastasia's relationship outside of the bedroom.  Which is why this movie surprised me so much and why I'm writing it two years after it came out. 

Hollywood has a long history of normalizing abusive relationships.  Abuse is not normal.  If you've found yourself in an unhealthy relationship or have one that you're having trouble getting past?  Get support.  You deserve to feel safe.   You deserve to feel happy.





Guest Post: Patti's Story

Today we are lucky to have a guest post by Patricia Cruz.  Patti was kind enough to share her story of pregnancy loss and postpartum depression.  She's also sharing her 10 Tips to Coping During the Postpartum Period.  I hope you find some comfort and maybe a few smiles from it.

I hate that I am writing about postpartum depression. I hate writing about it because before I had it, I honestly thought that some people were just not strong enough, or that they just couldn’t handle it and they should go for a walk and they would feel better. I grew up in the North East! We are a strong bunch! We don’t have time for “mental” problems. I remember talking to my parents when I thought it might be going on and them brushing it off and saying that I was “just tired”. I was also really, really, tired. To the point where I would cry for no reason, feel nauseous during the day and managed most days with a mild headache and a promise that “tonight just has to be better”.

I believe part of what contributed to my postpartum depression is my road to being a parent. It wasn’t easy for us to have a baby. This was my third pregnancy. The first pregnancy was lost to an early miscarriage that shook my confidence and introduced me to a world where it’s possible to have the excitement of a positive pregnancy test and that not result in a child some months later. The second pregnancy loss was shocking and heartbreaking to our family. After the miscarriage, my only concern was making it past 12 weeks, past the “danger zone”. Once I was 12 weeks pregnant I told friends and family, we celebrated out at dinner. I was assured that in the Spring our guest room would be a baby room. But it was not to be and after a devastating prenatal diagnosis, I gave birth to and lost a baby boy at 22 weeks pregnant. It was a loss that broke my heart and made me feel like I was in this category of women that just doesn’t have a good outcome. I was a reproduction loser. Friends and family around me were having children. I could mark my losses by their children’s birthdays. Attending those parties without my boy, and with no pregnancy to speak of exhausted me. I just wanted to have a baby, quietly, with no one noticing. I wanted to not have people tilt their head sideways and look at me with pity when they talked of my family.

So when I got pregnant for the third time I kept it a secret. I didn’t tell anyone until three months. And then I only told my immediate family. Some of my closest friends didn’t know until I was 20 weeks pregnant. I told people at work only after an anatomy scan at 5 months revealed that the child was healthy as far as they could see. So when I made it to 38 weeks and my son arrived, I expected to feel so much relief from the sadness I had carried. I did feel some relief that he was here safely and that I could stare at him and know he was real, and coming home with us. I remember being in the delivery room feeling like I should some sort of euphoric moment that I was not having. Instead when they put me in a wheelchair and handed me my son to go to the recovery room, I fell asleep with him in my arms. I also felt overwhelmed, tired and struggled with feeling like things should be coming “naturally” that really weren’t.

I was home with this little guy for the first three months on (unpaid) maternity leave. It was a drastic shift from working full time and feeling like an accomplished professional. We didn’t have the kind of day to day help that I had imagined and there were too many days where I didn’t talk to another adult for 8-10 hours. My husband went back to work a week after our son was born. While we both had parents we loved, they lived out of state, the closest being over two hours away. People came to visit but I felt so isolated and when they left I often felt more exhausted and really believed that no one understood what I was going through.

I reached out for help at my six week postpartum appointment. They did a screening test in the office and I “passed”.  When the doctor came in to see me and I gathered everything in me to tell him I thought I might have postpartum depression, he said “Yeah, that happens. It will go away soon”. But he was wrong. I didn’t really start to feel like myself until about nine months after having my son. And only then through a combination of exercise, sleep and therapy.  The physician’s lack of support and unwillingness to help me address this depression made me feel like I should just handle it on my own, and that it wasn’t worth it to see if perhaps I could feel better than I did. I thought maybe that’s just how everyone felt postpartum. I dreaded my son waking up, I was constantly mad at my husband and I felt like I had fallen into a hole and no one would understand or be helpful to me. I was almost unable to have any empathy for my son or anyone else. I loved him, but it was through gritted teeth, struggling just to get dressed and feel okay about the new world I was in.

I have a new little one at home now. It’s been four months and I’ve been vigilant about waiting, watching to see if any signs of postpartum depression will come back. I feel that down, terrible feeling very infrequently and usually when I am my most exhausted. Those around me reassure me that I am tired, and it’s not the same, and it will be okay. I asked them to do this for me, and also to get me help should it not be okay.  There were other things I felt like I would have done differently or did do differently this time. I made a list, because if you are tired and postpartum, I’m impressed you even read this far and you deserve a list.

Here is what I would have done differently if I could do it again.

  1. I would pump milk early on. I would start pumping around day four or five of life. I know this sounds crazy, but for me, it would have been worth it to have one stretch each day where I could have my partner feed the baby and I could sleep for 3 or 4 hours instead of 1 or 2.

  2. Speaking of milk, and this one is hard. I should have stopped nursing. It was making me miserable, I didn’t enjoy it and it was causing me to dread my son being awake because I was so nervous/scared about feeding him. I look back on this and really regret that I could have been just happily feeding him and enjoying his company instead of constantly calculating how much milk he had, if I had enough and how much time I had to eat/poop/take a walk before he needed to eat again.

  3. I would put all of my friends and family on warning. I would tell them to come over, bring me food, send meals and ask them what days they would be free for me to stop by and have them hold the baby.

  4. I would use my wonderful neighbors. I would drop the baby off to them and just go back in my house for ten minutes alone. I did this recently with my little guy, and the neighbor talked about it for weeks, and how much it meant to her to have special time with him.
  5. I would go outside. Even in the cold/rain/dreary days. Everything is worse when you are stuck inside your house. I would bundle the baby up and take the bus downtown to get something good to eat. Then I would bus it back.

  6. I would get a counselor before having the baby and make three appointments for after I had the baby. That way I would make sure that I already had someone established who I could go talk to. I would tell the counselor that I was worried about postpartum depression so she would seek me out when I tried to cancel those appointments. And if that counselor recommended medication, I would take it!

  7. I would deeply believe (still working on this one) that my body is capable of healing itself, getting back in shape and recovering but that I would need to give it time. Like 9 months of time, not three months.

  8. I would stop cleaning/cooking and caring about those things. For real. I am not uniquely qualified to do those things.

  9. I would write about it. Or find a blog where someone is writing about it and read it. I felt alone, like no one really got it.  A friend tried to tell me that she thought I had postpartum depression and it really took a toll on our friendship. I thought she was judging me and looking down on me. She was trying to help and I wasn’t ready.

  10. I would forgive myself for having postpartum depression. It has taken four years, a second child (where I didn’t have postpartum depression) and a lot of counseling to realize that I felt really guilty and struggled with feeling like I wasn’t good enough, or strong enough. I am enough. You are enough.

Patti is thankful to be a Mom to two great boys and a wife to a great husband who loves Midori sours. She writes about finding joy in unexpected places, losing her Dad to cancer, having a Mom with Alzheimer's disease and her love of baking on her blog:

The Vast Open Sea of Infertility

Imagine you are in the middle of the ocean.  You are without a boat.  You are without a life jacket.  Your arms and legs are pumping and kicking and you can feel your own exhaustion added to the weight of your body, pulling you under.  You hear a voice "Just relax" and you know that if you do allow your body to go limp you can float on the water and give your muscles the relief that they're screaming for.  But you also know that if you do "just relax" your mind will turn to what may or may not be lurking below.  And while you're wondering if something is down there waiting for you, you're slowly moving with the water...farther away from shore.

Welcome to infertility.  Each month women and couples find themselves back out to sea-exhausted, anxious, full of fear of the unknown.  It can be crippling.  And it can be difficult for those who have never experienced infertility to fully know how to support someone struggling with wanting to have a baby, but not being able to.  Or, being able to get pregnant but not stay pregnant.  So well meaning loved ones say things like "just relax." But you know better. 

Struggling to get pregnant can be a lonely road to be on.  If you're not careful it can be damaging to your well being, your relationship with your partner and those well meaning friends who don't always know what to say. 

This time in your life is stressful enough.  Be intentional about giving yourself what you need right now and be intentional about nurturing and caring for yourself.    Here are some ways you can get started.  If you're taking good care of yourself and are still struggling--reach out.

Is someone you love struggling with infertility?  Here are some resources for family and friends.

5 Tips for Stalking Victims

We often joke about "stalking" someone online by looking at someone's social media sites, but people who have experienced real life stalking know that it's more than browsing your ex's Facebook profile to see who they're dating now.  One in six women and one in 19 men have been stalked in their lifetime.  Stalkers can be complete strangers, but often are people that the victim knows well, such as a former intimate partner.  

So what is it like to be stalked by someone?  It's being followed wherever you go.  It's seeing your stalker drive by your house or place of work for the fifth time today.  It's receiving unwanted gifts, damaging your property, monitoring your phone or online activity or threatening to hurt you or someone you love.  It's when you feel unsafe, anxious, fearful, depressed or on edge because someone is stalking you.

Stalking is a crime, but it's also difficult for victims to prove which leaves them feeling helpless and isolated in their fear and anxiety.  But there are concrete steps you can take.

1. Create a safety plan. Have a plan in place so you (and your family) know what to do in a crisis situation.  What do you do if your stalker shows up at your work?  What if s/he approaches your children at school? What if they tell you they'll stop following you if you will just meet them to talk?  Have a plan.

2. Trust your instincts.  Stalking may start slow and then ramp up--unwelcome flowers at the office this week, "running into you" at the grocery store next week, then what seemed like a coincidence is starting to feel a little more coordinated on their part.  Trust your gut.  If something feels off, tell someone.  Not sure?  Talk to a professional counselor or domestic violence advocate.

3. Document, document, document! Victims of stalking often feel helpless because stalking can be difficult to prove.  They may be told by police officers that there's nothing they can do because it's perfectly legal for that person to "happen" to drive by your house.  Here's where your diligence in documenting comes in.  When you can show patterns of behaviors by your stalker, the stronger your case is to police.  If someone is with you, have them document that they were there and were witness to the behavior.

4. Get support. Break out of isolation.  Talk with your friends, your family, your neighbors.  Let them in on what's going on and allow yourself to talk about the emotions your experiencing.  Don't have someone?  Talk with a professional experienced in stalking behaviors. 

5. Call 911. Your safety is priority.  Do not minimize what you're going through.  If you feel you are in danger, call 911 for help.  Each contact you have with police will be recorded and you can use this as further documentation.

Being stalked is not your fault.  You deserve to feel safe.  Stalking behaviors often escalate quickly, so take the steps you need to take to ensure your physical and emotional safety today.


When Birth Ain't All That Beautiful

Giving birth is an amazing, beautiful thing.  Except when it's not.  Or, maybe you're overwhelmingly happy that your baby is healthy and safe, but in the end the whole thing left you feeling detached... or sad that it wasn't what you imagined or worse, scared because the experience was so traumatic.

Many new moms feeling the "baby blues" may not realize that the way they feel is connected to their birthing experience. Traumatic birth experiences include feelings of helplessness, loss of control or imminent danger to you or the baby during childbirth.  

Did you feel left out of the decision making during your labor and delivery?  Was there an emergency with you or the baby? 

Consider reading more on traumatic birth and know that getting support can help you to heal and be the mom you want to be.

The Far Reach of Trauma

Trauma is a hot topic these days.  And that's a good thing!  Except...not all understanding of trauma is equal.  Your therapist, your doctor, your yoga instructor--they (hopefully) all know that having a basic understanding of trauma is important.  They know that if you were abused as a child, the ramifications of that experience can be seen throughout a lifetime.  They know to ask you about it and probably write it down somewhere.

But a trauma informed clinician? They know there's more to the story.  A trauma informed clinician knows that trauma has the ability to take root into your history and then, with time, grow and stretch and sprout out over your life in ways you might not notice.

Having difficulty communicating with your partner?  Suddenly anxious as your child entered kindergarten?  Do you have a chronic health problem that's been difficult to treat?  If you have experienced a distressing or disturbing event in your life, trauma is likely playing a role.

You may have packed up and left your past behind long ago, but your trauma hitched a ride.  Ask your doctor or therapist more about how they understand trauma's role in our mental and physical health.  



What Color Are Santa's Panties?

An unexpected question I recently had from my four year old :)  (green and red though amiright?)

This time of year brings a lot of questions about Santa Claus.  We teach kids not to lie…which contradicts with telling the story of Santa Claus for families that celebrate Christmas.  This article does a nice job of explaining the difference between “good” and “bad” lies as well as the benefit Santa and his elves have on kids cognitive development. 

Imaginative play helps bolster emotional development, creativity and reasoning.  So whether it’s Santa, fairies, the tooth fairy or something else—magic is a powerful gift to give to a child.   

How do you incorporate magic and imaginative play into your children's lives?